An Open Letter

Dear God,

Alam ko hindi naman ako masiyadong mabait. Pero mayron din akong kabaitan na kaunti. Iyon nga lang, kaunti lang talaga. Hindi naman ako masiyadong nanlalait – slight lang naman. Kasalanan ko ba na mataas ang waistline nung officemate ko? Hindi ko tuloy napigilan itchika sa ibang officemates ko na nakihalakhak sa akin. Naramdamam yata ni Mr. Waistline na abot hanggang dibdib. I’m sure na-hurt siya..

Nung college naalala ko iyong classmate ko na medyo hawig kay Bentong, baka nga long lost brother niya iyon eh, I will not mention his name, itago na lang natin siya sa alyas na Jimmy (hahahaha – iyan ang real name niya), I really made fun of him with my classmates. Bata pa naman ako nun eh immature. Now I know better. And besides ginantihan niya naman ako nung Retreat. Talagang sabi niya in front of everybody hurt daw siya sa mga Indirect na panunukso ko. Sabi nga ng Retreat Master if I had anything to say. Quiet lang ako. Grabe Super kontrabida ang labas ko talaga nun.

Minsan kapag nagwi-wish ako sa iyo. Alam ko na hindi mo ako bibiguin kasi minsan lang ako lumalapit sa iyo eh. Wala naman kasing simbahan dito sa Saudi kaya hindi ako nakakasimba. Atsaka never naman akong naging religious. Kahit nga itong blog na ito, walang redeeming value. Nagsisimba lang naman ako dati para makaporma (nakakahiyang aminin pero that was how immature I was). But nowadays I just Pray lang ako in the privacy of my own mind. Sabi nga di ba “The best prayer is when you have a conversation with God”.

I know I was smart, but I had a very very very hard time when I was in College of Law in San Beda. Alam ko alam mo iyon kasi siguro iyon ang pinaka madalas kitang hingan ng tulong especially in Criminal Law Recitation. Sometimes nga feeling ko close na kami ni St. Benedict kasi I was always in his chapel. Nanghihingi din ako ng tulong sa iyong alagad na si St. Jude kasi feeling ko ang Patron ng mga Hopeless Case lang ang makakatulong sa akin.

But inspite of all my shortcomings, I still feel na malakas pa rin ako sa iyo.

Yesterday while I was crossing the street, a white Honda Accord just came out of nowhere and almost hit me if I had not managed to step back just in time. Grabe. My whole body was shaking. Takot na takot talaga ako. And afterwards, I managed a small prayer of thanks.

It was just simple.

Thank you for giving me a chance to still live.

Ang iyong anak
Have you thanked God lately for the small things? Or anything grand?
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7 Comments on “An Open Letter”

  1. BoBoT says:

    This is like an honest-to-goodness conversation with God.

    It’s a good thing you shared it to everyone.

    Very commendable ate! Pakabait ka lagi.

    Goooooooo……

  2. jase says:

    I am so touched naman !!! Thanks for sharing kapatid!

  3. Daniel Yuson says:

    SIGN YAN
    MAGPAKA BAIT KA NA DAW
    AND
    ALWAYS REMEMBER
    JAPAN

  4. .: jackie :. says:

    wow.dear, it’s good to know that u’re safe and all. nag thanks ka din ke God and perhaps He knows about that. He made u live kxe He want u to do something worth-doing pa.

    just keep on praying.

    😉

  5. Phoenix says:

    What a beautiful sentiment.. You know, I’ve always wondered as well why God would be so great and so generous with such a rebelious “prodigal son” such as myself. Perhaps it’s because He really loves us that much ; ) Everyday is a gift. Thanks for sharing this story = ) xx Thad

  6. Daniel Yuson says:

    tennybear or justin is from cavite. sa atheneum daw siya nad h.s.

  7. jaleesa says:

    i like this entry. i do pray everyday and God is always good to me. He did grant my 2 top wishes although it took awhile before it happened. but that’s ok. they say “patience is a virtue.” i’m thankful for all He’s done for my family, loved ones and myself. hindi natutulog ang Diyos! 🙂 ingatz

    p.s.
    hope you don’t mind if i come and visit your blog every now and then. found your site thru bobot.


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